I’m stained with secrets
slowly burning with heat of sunrise
My heart lives there
between the echoed footsteps of goodbyes
My lips spill time uncontrollably
my tongue is chasing seconds
That pass memories in the dark
I’m filled with Faith
Raging with the joy of Resurrection
my soul lives here
Inside the tears of trials and triumphs
My voice carries a message that is everlasting
It is unconditional, it is love
Clear gray pastures that lead me abound
Journeys into the unknown abyss of unlimited possibilities.
I have swam these concrete waters before, this time it’s different. The construction seems to patch up those distant fears I hid
Nothing quiets the labor of rubber being beaten upon ancient cracks of regret yet even that constant reminder cannot diffuse the beauty that is before me.
I pray with wide open eyes, I thank with closed lips and look only ahead.
I believe that we can over come our past, our transgressions and our hurt. We can be better then we once were. No longer shackled to our mistakes but changed by them.
If it is possible to begin again there has to be trust and to trust we must learn to forgive; not forget. If we never forgive, then someone will always pay for the sins of others.
I believe in you still, even though you have fallen were I once lay. If I can get up so can you, in fact if you allow; I will help you.
So parts of me still long for parts of her on cold/warm nights. I try to escape the feeling that something or everything has fallen between the cracks. I married with intent on forever, and stopped short of yesterday it feels.
I look at her and see our past, our babies, our laughter. I blink and see all the fire that burns what we try and create today an tomorrow. There is fear in our Hearts and it runs rampant through houses divided….where do we go from here ….